hushboyhush -

Need me?

I feel like I am useless, that I can't give you comfort

and the care you need. Want to hold you and be there

for you, you don't understand that I am worried.

My stomage is killing me, I want to throw up, but

I can't and my body is shaking. Why Can't you let

me be there for you? Because I really would love to

be there.We are supposed to share happiness, joy,

pain, sorrow and tears and so much more.You can't

fly solo all the time, because we are supposed to

support eachother.And I really need to see you,

as fast as possible to make sure it's okay with you.

But you don't understand, don't you WANT to be

there for me if I where crushed?Wouldn't you want

me to call you and look for comfort and shelter in your arms?

If i was hurt and crushed, wouldn't you like

me to come to you.Share my feelings with you

and show that I really really need you.

I feel like you don't want my help, like you are

running away from me. Pushing me away, and

that isn't the right way to go.

Never take me for granted.

Never take anyone for granted.

Cuz you can lose them tomorrow.

I don't feel like I am Needed!!

2012-03-16 @ 13:23:10 Permalink Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

Funderar på Brunett igen!

Det känns som att det är det enda rätta för mig, jag trivs mycket bättre i brunt hår. Är faktiskt riktigt söt i brunt hår. Många misstar sig och tror jag är annat än svensk då, har hört alla möjliga förslag på vilket land jag kan vara ifrån. Det är ganska kul att höra deras gissningar, allt från rumänien till latinamerika och annat. Ne jag ska bli brunett innan jag firar min födelsedag folks! Så var beredda för Brownie is coming back!

2012-03-16 @ 13:14:27 Permalink Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

MINA TEXTER

Im flying away, to a happy place

Where you are, my shining star

We can fly together up to the sky

Live for ever, on the other side

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You are making me mad, your promises you break.

Fuck this! Im gonna make it better, its year 2010.

Time for some changes, i Delete everything about you.

I reverze my mind, starting fresh.

You are gone missing.

What was i talking about? or Who?

I wish that i had never met you!

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I am the one and only

The hot and Funny.

Im never lonely

I have my honney

I am the top of the world

Strong, Nice Girl

But if you do me wrong

I cant keep the control

Ill get bitchy as hell

You dont stand a chance!

So enver do me wrong

and i will treat you well

take care of you and dry your tears as well

If you be my friend and never do bad

THEN YOU HAVE THE WORLD'S BEST FRIEND!

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When your tears starts to fall

And the rain is falling down

When you feel lonely and sad

You have to be strong

If it didnt kill you

It will only make you stronger

So fight to get up

You dont need him anylonger..

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When the rain started to fall

I started to Cry

Feeling lost, lonely

its all darkness in me

Im confused, dont know what to do

The words you sent to me

made everything upside down.

And the tears makes me drown.

Im lonely in the dark

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The rain is the tears i cry

my heart is broken

im hurt inside

im lost lonely

Today when i started to cry

The rain started to fall

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Im like a rose, standing outside, lonely in the rain

Nobody wants to take me in, standing here, feeling lost and unloved.

A red red rose, that nobody wants to keep.

A red rose you didnt see.

I will allways be Unseen.

A red rose standing in the rain, all you feel is pain.

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I only wish there was someone, who allways made me smile, and never once made me cry. Couse if he would see me cry, it would hurt him inside. Where is the fairytale everybody tells you about, love?Its everything but walking on pink clouds. I dont know what to do, I am so confused. Couse you didn't seem to care at all. You didn't even look a little bit sad. I dont know where to go. What to do.All i had in my heart was you, what hurtes the most is that you didn't seem to care at all. While I was crying all night long. How can I feel so alone? What is love? Is it my time soon to try walking on the clouds like everyone around me? Is this really love?

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Wouldn't it feel wonderfull if you came home to a clean home, and your man had lightened up some candles in the rooms. And you come in to your bedroom to see a red beautiful rose placed on your bed. He has prepered a lovely dinner for just you two. And you talk and laugh together in the candle light. He looks right into your eyes and tells you why you are so loved. What it is about your eyes, about your smile, what makes you speciall. Wouldn't it be the happiest supprise?

Just to hear your man say those beautiful words. Then you take a bath or a shower together, in the candle light. And he starts your song. A song that describe his feelings for you.

Wouldn't it be wonderfull? To be that special girl, for that perfect man?

Thats why I want romance </3

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i dont know what to say
It started perfect babee
But now i dont know
WHats happening to us

Listen darling to me
Couse i have seen
We fuss and fighting its
where ever we goo

First it was like a dream
We never left eachothers side

You did everything for me
But now its all far away

Now we fighting almoste every day
What should we do?

cant be like this
I dont know what to doooouoo

And I know that is hard
to see this love has flaws
But we cant deny it anymore
We only fooling our hearts

Maybe were not ment to be
Someone has to leave?
I dont know but this is falling apaaart
Listen darling please

First it was like a dream
We never left eachothers side

You did everything for me
But now its all far away

Now we fighting almoste every day
What should we do?

cant be like this
I dont know what to doooouoo

Something has to be done
We cant stay like this for evah
Stop yeling at me and please stop tell on me
You only making it worse
What should we do?
cant be like this

First it was like a dream
We never left eachothers side

You did everything for me
But now its all far away

Now we fighting almoste every day
What should we do?

cant be like this
I dont know what to doooouoo

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2012-03-07 @ 14:30:08 Permalink Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

OBS: Mina EGNA texter!

A wind blows, not hard, just like a gentle tuch.
In the moonlight the rain falls, like diamonds from the sky.
The stars twinkel, and you watch them and smile.
The water sound from a Lake, a shore, the oscean.
Calms you down, You feel the rythm.
Hearts beating a little faster, Dreaming eyes watching.
This feeling is the best in life.
When you fall in love for the first time.
Keep this feeling, dont let it slip away.
Help it stay alive, that burning flame.
And love for ever will stay<3

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När man är förälskad och inte får nog av varandra,
kan man ligga intill utan att säga ett ljud på flera timmar.
Man tröttnar inte på att höra sin älsklings andetag och man
dra fingrarna genom håret och pussas hela dan. Det är som
att bli beroende, pga känslan som pirrar, genom hela din kropp,
ut i dina tår och fingrar. Du drunknar i din babys ögon, du smeker
över kinden och halsen och bara njuter av närvaron. omvärlden
den bara försvinner, bara du och han i hela världen. känslan av
att vara i hans/hennes närhet, får din kropp att bli stek het.
Fjärillarna i magen dem blir tokiga av att känna din älskades
underbara doft, ingenting tar någonsin stopp, Finns ingen ände
på din kärlek, du skriver dikter och texter för VÄRLDEN att se.
Du slutar inte med dessa texter, du är lycklig i hans/hennes armar.
Du känner att du är hemma. Du är där du ska vara. Gos och mys
håller din kärlek vid liv, fortsätt så och du kommer vara kär i all framtid!

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It was you. Streaming through my mind everynight, in my sleep I met you, I loved
you, but I could never see your face, I only know you where the one. You came in
my sleep, not in one dream, but many. I was lucky, I was a queen, you did everything
you could to make me feel like your princess. You where the man I had never met,
the perfect man, The man I always wanted. I even dreamed of you while I was
with my past guys. They where nothing like the guy in my dreams, but I didn't
belive that man could be real. So I tryied to make them to that guy. But they never
tryied, because their love was a lie. Now I live in my dream, I dont know if I am awake,
because it doesn't feel like its real. I have my dream guy, day and night. I can't
believe, that it was me you wanted, I was your queen. I thought this dream was
to good to become true. But then you found me, and then I met you. I have never
regret my call, to met you and get to know you at all. It was the best call I have ever
made. Cause now my dream is here, and it will always stay.
Im in heaven, always <3

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There is only one real love in life
Hold it close but not too tight
You dont want to crush it
You dont want it to leave
So hold it close, and feel
Your heart pumping, your knees weak
Take good care of your love
Make sure that you always show
what you love and think of
Treat your love like a diamond
A fallen star from the sky
Its only happens once
So dont let it slip
Hold it
You have one chance in life
With the true love of your life
You sacrifice your life to be the one
The only one for me
Make me belive that you are the one
and onlyMy man for life
Fight for me
HOLD ME
dont let me fly
make me stay <3

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I thought i knew that you would always be there for me, always care for me.
But i realized, that you only played with my head. I feel no love for you!
You should care, you should be there, you should love me, BUT NO!
You dont care about me, you never have!
The only thing you really did well, was to fuck up my life! you splitted the family!
For that I can never forgive you. I have no love, I dont feel a thing.
I dont care what happens to you, and i really mean that!
And the only one to blame is you, and nobody els
Conected by Blood, NOT LOVE, you have always made my life HELL!
I dont think i would cry a tear, if you disapeard
I dont want you in my life again, let me be!
You turned my life in to a missery, I was depressed
No more, No more!
We are conected by Blood, thats it No more!
I hate you!
I thought i knew that you would always be there for me, always care for me.
But i realized, that you only played with my head. I feel no love for you!
You should care, you should be there, you should love me, BUT NO!
You dont care about me, you never have!
The only thing you really did well, was to fuck up my life! you splitted the family!
For that I can never forgive you. I have no love, I dont feel a thing.
I dont care what happens to you, and i really mean that!
And the only one to blame is you, and nobody els
Conected by Blood, NOT LOVE, you have always made my life HELL!
I dont think i would cry a tear, if you disapeard
I dont want you in my life again, let me be!
You turned my life in to a missery, I was depresed
No more, No more!
We are conected by Blood, thats it No more!
I hate you!

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När du ligger vid mig tätt intill, känns det som att hela världen stannar till
Tiden försvinner när jag hör dina andetag, kan ligga så här natt och dag
Känner hur din hand vilar på min midja, allt snurrar bara vi är stilla
Jag vilar mot ditt bröst och hör ditt hjärta pumpa, min puls ökar o ökar
När du blickar in i mina ögon känns det som att jag sjunker av en tyngd
men samtidigt så svävar jag, för allting känns så himla underbart
Din röst, får det att pirra i hela min kropp, jag blir yr av känslan
känner så himla mycket för dig, hoppas detta förklarar en hel del
När vi kysser varandra vill jag frysa allt, vara i den stunden för alltid
Det ögonblicket, den känslan, tankarna försvinner
Jag behöver inte tänka, jag känner bara vilken underbar känsla
Allting runt om oss försvinner i min värld, när du är där
När du drar dina fingrar genom mitt hår, kan inte förklara hur det känns
Du betyder så himla mycket för mig och orden räcker inte till
Kan inte förstå att du är min, bara min, det går inte in
Jag får inte in det i mitt huvud att allt detta är på riktigt
Hoppas du inser hur mycket jag älskar dig, för jag har aldrig kännt detta förr
Bara av att höra ditt namn känner jag lycka
När jag ser bilder på dig blir jag helt till mig
När jag tänker på dig är jag i min egen lilla värld
Du är allting för mig gubben, hoppas du inser hur mycket du är för mig
Ljuset i mitt liv, syret jag andas, lyckan för att orka livet
Jag hör musik fast ingen musik spelas, detta är kärlek på hög nivå
Jag vill aldrig någonsin släppa dig, aldrig någonsin låta känslan försvinna
Håller fast vid detta så länge det går, för jag mår toppen med dig
När du ligger vid mig tätt intill, känns det som att hela världen stannar till
Tiden försvinner när jag hör dina andetag, kan ligga så här natt och dag
Känner hur din hand vilar på min midja, allt snurrar bara vi är stilla
Jag vilar mot ditt bröst och hör ditt hjärta pumpa, min puls ökar o ökar
När du blickar in i mina ögon känns det som att jag sjunker av en tyngd
men samtidigt så svävar jag, för allting känns så himla underbart
Din röst, får det att pirra i hela min kropp, jag blir yr av känslan
känner så himla mycket för dig, hoppas detta förklarar en hel del
När vi kysser varandra vill jag frysa allt, vara i den stunden för alltid
Det ögonblicket, den känslan, tankarna försvinner
Jag behöver inte tänka, jag känner bara vilken underbar känsla
Allting runt om oss försvinner i min värld, när du är där
När du drar dina fingrar genom mitt hår, kan inte förklara hur det känns
Du betyder så himla mycket för mig och orden räcker inte till
Kan inte förstå att du är min, bara min, det går inte in
Jag får inte in det i mitt huvud att allt detta är på riktigt
Hoppas du inser hur mycket jag älskar dig, för jag har aldrig kännt detta förr
Bara av att höra ditt namn känner jag lycka
När jag ser bilder på dig blir jag helt till mig
När jag tänker på dig är jag i min egen lilla värld
Du är allting för mig gubben, hoppas du inser hur mycket du är för mig
Ljuset i mitt liv, syret jag andas, lyckan för att orka livet
Jag hör musik fast ingen musik spelas, detta är kärlek på hög nivå
Jag vill aldrig någonsin släppa dig, aldrig någonsin låta känslan försvinna
Håller fast vid detta så länge det går, för jag mår toppen med dig

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the best day that spin around my mind
is the day when you came into my life
Everyday feels so bright and lovely
Couse I know you are there with me
when I am with you, the world stops
There is only us, you and I
Everytime time we tuch
You know I cant get enough
Just hold me now and for ever
I allways want us to stay together
The day you and I became One
My heart was filled with the sweetest songs
I listen to the song and there I see my love to you so clear
But i cant Explain or show you, Nothing I do is near
Couse my feelings to you are so strong
Please hold me dont let go, dont move on
I always want to stay in this lovely world
When Im with you i dont care about nothing at all
The only thing that means something the times we share
Is the heartbeat pumping against mine
hold me close, tight, dont let go
Dont want to fly away, dont want to grow apart ever
I love you for ever and ever
Lets just stay together in this life and the next
You make me want to live, you show me love right
I cant belive that you are mine
the best day that spin around my mind
is the day when you came into my life
Everyday feels so bright and lovely
couse I know you are there with me
When I am with you, the world stops
There is only us, you and I
Everytime time we tuch
You know I cant get enough
Just hold me now and for ever
I always want us to stay together
The day you and I became One
My heart was filled with the sweetest songs
I listen to the song and there I see my love to you so clear
But i cant Explain or show you, Nothing I do is near
Couse my feelings to you are so strong
Please hold me dont let go, dont move on
I always want to stay in this lovely world
When Im with you i dont care about nothing at all
The only thing that means something the times we share
Is the heartbeat pumping against mine
hold me close, tight, dont let go
Dont want to fly away, dont want to grow apart ever
I love you for ever and ever
Lets just stay together in this life and the next
You make me want to live, you show me love right
I cant belive that you are mine

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You make me smile every singel day
I hope that we always together will stay
You are the sweetest boy of them all
The best boyfriend I ever had boy
You should know that I love you so
I hope that we never let Go
Couse you made me belive in a thing called love
You make me see, what i have never realized
That I am pretty, that I am your life
I feel your love strong even when you are over there
Love has no bounderies
I love you Honney
You make me smile every singel day
I hope that we always together will stay
You are the sweetest boy of them all
The best boyfriend I ever had boy
You should know that I love you so
I hope that we never let Go
Couse you made me belive in a thing called love
You make me see, what i have never realized
That I am pretty, that I am your life
I feel your love strong even when you are over there
Love has no bounderies
I love you Honney

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Put the blame on me, its what they do
It will always be like this, what should i do?
Treat me like shit, like some piece of crap
You dont seem to know, That feelings is what I Have
Scream at me all day long, hit me and stab me
I have lived like this for a long time
It feels Terrible!
I cant take this any longer
Im falling own its darker then ever
Love is making me feel blue
I am hurt and broken, crushed
how to make it with no friends close
No one to hold me, so i can cry out my tears
I cant take it, how could i make it?
Without anyone that can hold me
please what did i do wrong?

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You can hit me once
you can hit me twice
even a third time
And again and again
I wont cry
If you hit my sister, my brother
My anger raise, i hit you until you cant move
Hit me as long as you want
But dont hit the younger ONCE!

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You said that it was true, you said i was your boo
I guess that it was all a lie, can somebody tell me why?
You have to play that stupid game?

Hurt some girls, is what you call fun
You make them feel speciell and then dumb
Why are you spending time to pretend?
Making them bleed, and cry in my their bed

She was your angel and you broke her wings
She can never fly again, to bottom she sinks
Broken, hurt, lonely, you think that is awsome!
You love to hurt them, it makes you smile
You don't care, If the angels are broken inside

They shut down and locked there hearts
Slowly they die, They fall apart
Do they have the power to raise again?
Some girls do and some girls can't!

Without their wings and hope for love
You can't seem to get enough!
You never stop, you laugh at them.
In the end you are a murderer
It was you who killed them.

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Spending time, to make me like you
Everything you do is making me smile
Then again why waist your time?
Be honest, for just one time.
You play a game, with my heart
I belive and your spin my world around
Why is everyboy In this town
Just playing a game and fuck around
Its a game they play
I hate that game!

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♥ All i Want to do ♥
♥ is to be close to you ♥
♥ You are making ♥
♥ my dreams come true ♥
♥ Want to feel your heart ♥
♥ against mine ♥
♥ You are making me fly ♥
♥ You make the stars ♥
♥ shine so bright ♥
♥ A dream I want to become real ♥
♥ Is having you right here ♥
♥ beside me ♥

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